Usually I don’t make any New Year’s resolutions. I never felt that I had to do it. I liked the feeling of freedom of a resolution-less year. I felt free to chose, adjust, and move forward without constantly looking back over my shoulder and questioning myself if my actions are in line or on track with my pre-set, pre-determined declarations. Setting goals has never been very motivational or inspiring to me.
However, this year a few things happened in my life that made me question myself and, not surprisingly, my goals in life. I took a hard look at myself and posed a very simple question:
What do I want to change in 2012?
Not living up to anyone’s expectations but my own. Not everyone will or should understand choices that I make. Just because I choose to do something different than someone else, it does not mean I am being selfish, inconsiderate or difficult. It does not mean that because my choice is different, it is wrong. It simply means that I am being me.
Less explaining. I am going to try and explain myself less to people. I cannot change the way someone else views the world. Or my family. Or my dog. I cannot control what other people think. In the end, I think those who ask the most for an explanation will not understand what I have to say anyway.
Getting rid of the non-essential (and I am not talking about some ATM fees). De-cluttering my home and my closet is my biggest intent for the next year. I don’t really need countless pairs of shoes, sweaters or handbags. Stuff does not define me. I want to get rid of anything that is not being used, does not have a meaning and does not make me or Beaker feel our best. There are so many more aspects to who I am and that’s what I am going to focus on.
Embracing my own imperfections. I am a perfectionist who sometimes gets obsessed with things to the point that it becomes somewhat manic. I know that I am not perfect. No one is. I just need to embrace it and let it go. So much pressure would be lifted off my shoulders.
Life and Finances
Saving an emergency fund. Even a small emergency fund would be great.
Paying off our consumer debt by the end of June, 2012. It is so close and, yet, it is so far away.
Spending less. Consuming less. Enough said.
Extra Curriculum Activities
Volunteering. I have never volunteered in my life. It doesn’t feel right anymore. In fact, it feels like I’ve been using, consuming and taking a lot and not giving back. It is about time to start.
Writing more fiction. Writing is my favorite creative outlet that gives me immense pleasure and satisfaction.
Growing and keeping my blog. Somehow and very unexpectedly, My Broken Coin is helping me to define my path out of consumerism. This blog has been the biggest source and the strongest motivation for my self-assessment and, hopefully, self-improvement.
Attending FINCON12 in Denver! I can’t wait.